Dear One in the sky and in my heart,
What is your plan?
I would really like to know.
The thing is, it’s hard work trusting you right now.
Why that is, I’m not sure.
Probably because I am a tiny speck and I never really understand what’s going on.
It’s not like you’ve EVER failed us.
It’s a funny thing believing in what you don’t see,
and yet seeing it all around AT THE SAME TIME.
You know about our curve ball,
the one that has us LEANING IN for comfort.
It’s not a Major League curve ball, more like Little League…
but it changes some things.
I hate change and YET
when I look back, my FULLEST moments
have been TRUSTING YOU
The births of them, the births of dreams… all the births and firsts that come from saying “YES.”
It’s so hard sometimes.
I’m going to cry the whole way through this YES, even though it feels so true.
For the record,
I stand here in AWE of what YOU’VE done for us.
Tiny people. Blessed people.
When I look back on life,
my only regret so far is not saying YES more OFTEN.
“Thank You” is just not ever going to be enough.
p.s. Sorry for all the whining I do along the way.