Last night we lost you. It stings with a heart wrenching, gut sinking foreverness. I am aching all over with the finality of it. You had no idea if we were ever coming back for you. But we were, my regal friend, we were. I feel as if a part of me has broken away from the whole. Cracked away under the weight and strain of sadness. I knew this day was coming, the day when you would break my heart. I though I would be there for it. In my soul I was right by your side when you crossed over. I thought you would hang on for me, my precious girl. I wanted to guide you as you left. Surround you and ease your passing. Instead you slipped away alone, well loved but wrapped only in the comfort of solitude. Your terms, not mine… which is totally you.
Here I sit, you gone, waring with myself. I’m angry that this is how it ends. When I said goodbye I didn’t mean forever. Why did you think I did? Why did your body give out on you before I could get there? You were there when I brought them both home from the hospital. You were my family when I had none. My ally in a house full of men. I have depended upon your existence for over a decade. How could you leave like this, my girl? I was supposed to be there. To see you off and celebrate a good life lived. To thank you. I loved you and treasured you for a long as you drew breath… and I love you still. Thank you for what you brought to our family. Thank you for loving us. Thank you for your undying loyalty which, I am sure, still lives on. Thank you for being the best dog on the planet. No one can ever replace you, dearest of Danes. No one.
You were more than just a dog, you were a Great Dane.
Love,
your people
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)”
― E.E. Cummings
Your sorrow radiates as I read your good bye. I’m so sorry to hear about your loss, though that doesn’t help ease the pain. :(
I’m so sorry for you. Such a heartbreaking loss.
So sorry for your loss… :(
Your blog is beautiful, and your photos have such an ethereal quality, magnificent.
I’m so sorry KJ. I hope your wonderful memories of her can offer some ease of your sorrow. I know it hurts so much.
Having just recently lost my father and my cat, and with an aging
border collie mix named Molly(who was run over a month ago and recovering) I read your post with my heart breaking. For you and for me. I sobbed through it. I am so sorry for your loss, of such a dear friend and stable, loyal rock to hold onto. Animals are a gift from God that bring such laughter and comfort to our lives. Praying for you all.
So sorry for your loss. May God comfort you and may you see your dear one running free and healed with the eyes of your heart.
“What we have once enjoyed we can never lose. All that we love deeply becomes a part of us.”
~Helen Keller
aw, so sorry my sweet friend. I cried while reading this. My heart goes out to you. Lots and lots and lots of love.
You’re making me cry at work!! So sad :( Hope your heart heals soon…
xoxo
Pippa
thanks for the love all. so grateful she was with our lovely friends when she passed.
I’m so sorry to read this about Ella. It brought tears to my eyes. I hope that the pain is lessening and that you can remember her fondly without feeling grief at some point, but I know how difficult that is. Praying for you during this time.
I’m reading your post, my face awash with tears. I, too, have an elderly furbody in my family. I can’t know all you are feeling, but I can feel & share some of it. Be gentle with yourself; know that she knew all she needed to xx
My heart breaks in the sadness of your words. I’m so sorry for your loss. May God hold your heart in His and be your comfort.