So, I choose them. I’m recognizing, right this moment, that their legs are getting longer and their tummies don’t stick out like they used to. Yes, I have other dreams, but THEY were my first dream, and even if they weren’t… they are my best one. They win. When pitted or pushed against any other thing that I love and work for, they will always win.
Does this mean I will give up every dream I have ever had that does not include them? No. It means that every dream’s importance and timing is fiercely weighed against the well protected dream of guiding the lives of two ridiculously good looking young men.
I HAVE TO work and create and dream, because it brings words like PURPOSE and MEANING barreling right out of the clouds and into my lap. I want my boys to SEE first hand what it looks like when people follow their dreams, but I also want to be there enough that they can see it.
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Love love love this and telling myself the same thing! You are awesome!
Thanks @Shannon… no YOU’RE awesome (we could do this all day ;)
I think all mothers struggle with finding the level of … doing it all. Through motherhood it would be great if we could all find our comfort level of being mom enough and still reaching our personal goals of doing enough non-mom work. Such a challenge and a gift when it’s discovered that playing pirates all day is enough. :) Thanks for sharing your beautiful thoughts and words, as always! :)
I love this post Kristy! I am there with you. I choose them! Whoohhooo! What freedom! Love you and love your honesty and being able to see your journey.
You are inspiring!