Dear One in the sky and in my heart,
What is your plan?
I would really like to know.
The thing is, it’s hard work trusting you right now.
Why that is, I’m not sure.
Probably because I am a tiny speck and I never really understand what’s going on.
It’s not like you’ve EVER failed us.
It’s a funny thing believing in what you don’t see,
and yet seeing it all around AT THE SAME TIME.
You know about our curve ball,
the one that has us LEANING IN for comfort.
It’s not a Major League curve ball, more like Little League…
but it changes some things.
I hate change and YET
when I look back, my FULLEST moments
have been TRUSTING YOU
through CHANGE.
The births of them, the births of dreams… all the births and firsts that come from saying “YES.”
Saying YES.
It’s so hard sometimes.
I’m going to cry the whole way through this YES, even though it feels so true.
So right.
So YOU.
For the record,
I stand here in AWE of what YOU’VE done for us.
Tiny people. Blessed people.
When I look back on life,
my only regret so far is not saying YES more OFTEN.
And BTW,
“Thank You” is just not ever going to be enough.
Love,
Me
p.s. Sorry for all the whining I do along the way.
You’ve had my heart and prayers since reading this 4 days ago. Oh that you would keep falling forward into each step. And that you would know how very loved you are with each step.
Thanks for helping us feel it. All grace, all truth.
Thanks for sharing in a way that makes us stop and reflect and realize again, “thank you is never going to be enough.”
Thanks for not giving up.
Thanks for hitting publish.
Hi. I found your link on our church website – Berean Baptist in Burnsville Minnesota, while looking for a missionary for my son’s Sparks homework. I love reading about your life & have begun praying for you, your family & your ministry. Thank you for your service to our Lord Jesus Christ!
Sincerely,
Tracy Williams
Apple Valley, MN
Tracy, thank you for the encouraging thoughts! We love Berean (I grew up going to church there)!